Why I stopped writing, and why I want to write more now, than ever before.
I’ve been meaning to write more.
Every time I get in front of my computer to write, I stop.
It’s not that I don’t have thoughts I want to express or words to share. I instead find myself getting overwhelmed, deleting and rewriting the same sentence a dozen times, and just eventually giving up altogether after writing a few measly paragraphs.
But why am I so overwhelmed? What’s so overwhelming about typing out some thoughts into a blog?
It’s not the actual writing part that overwhelms me.
It’s everything else that writing on the internet entails…
If someone even wants a chance of getting their content interacted with, on the internet, one needs to use SEO software, social media, pingback trackers, and constantly be monitoring their views, hits, and shares…
I realized that I was no longer focused on the CONTENT of what I was writing, but instead of how many keywords I could fit into the first three paragraphs.
I wasn’t thinking about the message I wanted to send, but instead writing stories that could get the most hits in the SEO software that tracked search engine algorithms.
Is this what writing for the internet has become?
I find myself getting so frustrated, rereading the empty paragraphs that do nothing to move me or inspire me to create more. I stopped writing altogether for a few months because there was no passion behind it. There is nothing that inspires me about writing listicles and clickbait blog posts. There is no passion in my words when I’m writing to simply keep my “content fresh”.
Why do I feel so pressured as a writer?
Pressured to be constantly cranking out content.
Pressured to be making easy to read and entertaining posts.
Pressured to restrict my writing to a niche market.
Pressured to write within a certain format.
Pressured to conform my writing to simple phrases and flashy titles.
Pressured to get as many views as possible.
The list can go on and on.
I was sick of it. Sick of not wanting to write. Sick writing and feeling it wasn’t good enough, sick of online platforms and software dictating what I should write.
So I stopped.
I stopped for a long time.
But now, I’m going to start writing for MYSELF!
I REFUSE TO WRITE JUST FOR THE SAKE OF CREATING CONTENT.
I’m sorry if the ‘all caps’ was a bit aggressive, but I’m serious. I refuse to create any more empty writing.
I want to reconnect to the real reason I love to write: because I love to share and express. I want to share my thoughts, my feelings, and my journey through this beautiful life, with all of you.
I’m writing this not only as a resolution to myself but also as a fellow artist in a seemingly brainwashed world.
I feel your pain.
I want you to know that you are not alone. I know what it feels like to try to scream your authentic words over the thousands of fake voices, though it feels like no one can hear you.
I hear you.
I don’t want you to be afraid of sharing the words, the art, the videos, the content your heart is begging you to create, just because it doesn’t look like the what the SEO algorithms are telling you.
Just like I don’t want to be afraid to do it either.
The world needs to hear you. The world needs to hear us.
I feel compelled, now more than ever to start sharing genuine and thoughtful content.
The internet is so saturated with product reviews, 15 ways to look like Kim Kardashian, paid advertising partnerships, and mindless content that share nothing other than how to live up to unrealistic standards set by society.
The world has been deprived of originality in these past few years.
Now is the time to share it.